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. . . law school is crazy y’all . . .

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Law school is crazy, y’all.

Let me just be very real here. I’ve lost touch with life in a lot of ways. I am constantly at school, always reading cases and researching. I barely see my family, and when I do it seems so momentary- such a drastic difference from when I homeschooled my kiddos and was home with them all day long everyday- which seems like a million years ago, even though it was only a few months back.

I’m writing today, because I need to feel something. I need to feel alive again. Writing used to be that escape for me, and at the same time, it kept me grounded.

Law school writing is different. Sooooo different. It pretty much sucks the life and soul out of you, and puts all of your creativity into an untouchable box, high up on a shelf that you can’t reach.

It’s there though, you know it’s there, because you can see the corner of it just past the edge of the shelf. It’s forbidden. You’re not supposed to touch it, because if you do a monster is likely to bite your hand. But, all the while you stare up at it, wondering when you’ll get it back.

I keep trying to be positive and see the good, and look forward to the day when I’m doing what I love, but it’s hard to do sometimes.

12093819_1704883886411290_516460078_nWe have exams this week and next week, and while I should be studying, I’m sitting here staring at a wall wondering how I’m possibly going to get it all done.

Someone may say, “You can’t get it ALL done, so why try?” I tell them that if I don’t try to get it all done, I won’t try to get any of it done. Here’s the real question though:

If I don’t try to get it all done, how will I know that I can’t get it all done?

If I don’t try to give my all and do my all, I will give up.  I can’t give up . . . not now, not when I’m so close.

The problem is, I’m exhausted. If I could just sleep for like a week, I could probably feel normal again. 😉

That’s not going to happen though.

I have to keep going . . . keep trying . . . keep working . . . keep praying . . . keep moving . . . keep getting up . . . keep  showing up . . . keep on keeping on


Each day is a different battle, but each day I’m learning to adapt. The work isn’t so bad or so hard, it’s just the tedium and monotony of it all. Day after day after day.

But, you know what? It’s worth it. Every day, we grow and we learn and we change and we become who we are in each moment. I can train my body and get into great shape by eating right and working out. The work and the effort produce visible results, and it keeps you going.

Law school for me is different in that the visible effects aren’t so appealing . . . lol. The bags under my eyes have their own bags. At one point, I was actually losing hair, and let’s not get started on how many days I’ve missed at the gym!

604758On the outside, I look like a hot mess, and I have very little to show on paper for the sleepless nights and hours of studying.

In fact, sometimes I feel like a bumbling idiot talking about nothing at all. There are so many emotions, thoughts, and words . . . oh so many words to read each day and then later to comprehend.

This by itself shuts my speech processing down in a quick second. Shit, just processing in general. It’s like my brain is on a vacation and it’s not taking any messages. So absentminded. I’m having to multitask on a level I have never had to before, and it’s stretching me.

But, I know this process is bringing me closer to my goals. I know I’m stronger everyday I choose to keep going. And that’s all I can do . . . keep reminding myself of the things I know, even when it feels like I know very little.

I know I love my kids, I know the effort will pay off, I know I can’t give up, I know I have to press on . . .I KNOW I CAN DO IT!

And That’s all I got folks.

Peace Out, Ya’ll!

~ julie ~

haters gonna hate

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For Miles’ 4th Birthday last year, he said he wanted an M&M cake.  Well, since I have not given into the craze of Pinterest, mostly because I KNOW I would get ADDICTED to it,  I decided that it would probably be a lot less stressful for me and a lot more fun for Miles and his daddy to make it themselves . . . together.

Here is what they came up with, it wasn’t exactly the Pinterest cake above, but  I was pretty impressed with what a little can-do attitude and self-motivation can do, I mean they did their best, and that’s all I asked for:

Oh, it was beautiful!!  What??  You don’t believe me?  I’m serious.  My husband is pretty crafty, and He and Miles made the cake, that I had imagined and also added these lovely adornments to the table to add to the picturesque quality I was really going for!

Ok, and just so you know, I CAN see that smug little look on your face, AND  hear your smirking!!  What?!  Do you think I would lie about something like this?  Something so unimportant as a birthday cake design?  Really??  I mean, how immature can ya get?

Wait . . . W H A T  did you just say??  Did you just have the audacity to remind me of my New Years resolution to “Keep it Real” this year?

W O W.  Just wow.  Haters, gonna hate!!

A N Y W A Y S . . .

I guess, I will still let you in on the chat they had, even in spite of your Smug, Hateful, and Jealous thoughts about how our cake came out.  Sheesh!

So, before the party, there were some leftover M&M’s they put in a container (and No, that is not a tell-tale sign, you CAN have leftovers, even when building furniture . . . stop it!).  Now, Justin had told Miles not to play with the container, but alas the boy did not listen, and he spilled them all over the floor 😦

Justin was obviously upset, and scolded him as was right, and here was what followed:

Miles:  I’m sorry for making the mess daddy!!

Justin:  I’m not upset about the mess Miles, but that you didn’t listen.  (such a good daddy)

Miles:  I’m sorry for dat too . . .

Miles:  . . . and I’m also sorry for burping . . .

Miles:  . . . AND farting too!

Lol…Now, you’re probably wondering what my husband said to get him to appologize for ALL that, am I right?? 🙂 I’m actually wondering too now … whatever it was, I think we can all agree that is was effective! Okay.  Ooookaaayyy. Fine.  So, that wasn’t actually the cake they made.  Thanks for the guilt trip!

Here is the cake they really made:







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Now, some might consider this a Pinterest – Fail, and if I’m being honest, it wasn’t exactly what I had in mind, or what I wanted to serve to guests last year at his party.

B U T, it was DELICIOUS, for realz!  AND, they had a great time making it, and it was THEIRS!  In retrospect, I’m so glad I didn’t micromanage this one!

So, now that I shared the truth with you, tell me, have you designed any Pinterest-Fail worthy Projects?

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